Blooming flower

 I'll stop running now, I'm sorry. 

  When I am open I feel like I am in contact pain. I feel hurt often and in truth I am a sensitive person. I have experienced so much pain for a 27 year lifespan. I try to reconcile with it, "Everyone has pain in their life" but not like this.  This is a deep ache that echos down every millimeter of my skin. It clings to me like a frightened child begging for protection. I feel it in every memory that I hold, in every moment that I cherish, in every breath that fills my lungs. My body is completely full of it. There isn't a single surface that doesn't know the strike of someone's hand, the burn of someone's anger or the agonizing weight of someone's dissatisfaction.  When will I be free?  Is any of this pain caused by me?